wow!

I guess I haven't been too on top of my blog. It's the last week of school and although I'm excited to have the kids home for the summer I find myself feeling a little bit sad. Another school year has flown by and my kids are not the same kids they were when they went into the school year. Yes, most of the changes are for the good. They have learned a lot of new things, they grown, they can do more and more fun things all the time. But, it is a little sad to know you'll never get those kids back, everything is always moving forward and too often it is moving a little too fast for me. Nellie is talking more and more all the time and Colin seems to be talking less ( at least to me ) I'll be leaving the house in about an hour to take Braelyn to nursery school for the last time. (yah, I've been teary all morning). All I can do is try to give my kids a fantastic summer and keep making great memories.

Speaking of memories...we went to the Kingston regional this weekend for Colin's race. Colin has been racing for 5 years and we have had so many great times. This weekend we had about 8 families all camping together at the track. These people have become such good friends. Anyway, it rained and I mean rained all evening and all night. We were soaked, I had 4 bags full of wet dirty clothes, just nasty. in the middle of this storm a group of them decide to make a huge slip & slide. They take a big piece of plastic, put it on a hill and pour several large bottles of bubbles down it. The kids were soaked, covered in bubbles & mud it was disgusting but they had a ball. These kids get to do these things together almost every weekend. So, even though it is a ton of work traveling every week, I try my best to suck it up and just enjoy it.

I am a nervous wreck about colin going to middle school. These next couple years can really make a difference. These kids are really getting older, I had to sit Colin down and talk to him about drugs. I really hate the fact that he has to know these things, but I want him prepared. I want him to have correct information. all of a sudden I'm looking at his friends a Little differently, I'm listening to their conversations a little more closely. Oh-my, the girls are so much older than the boys!!! Girls stay away! ha,ha.

Braelyn will be starting kindergarten in the fall and although this little girl can give me a really hard time I will miss the hell out of her. I am definitely at the point in my life that I do not want anymore children, but I think times like this would be easier if I had a baby at home. I know I'm get through it. I am always surprised how many things I have forgotten about my kids that I thought I would always remember. One memory I will never forget, it clear in my mind is the memory of that school bus turning the corner to pick Colin up for the first time. I was heartbroken.

although I wish they could stay small, there are a lot of great things that come from them getting bigger. When we go to a party or picnic, I can actually sit and talk with adults and the kids go off and play with the other kids. They can feed themselves so I get to eat my meal while it is still hot. They can all buckle themselves into the car, we actually pull out of our driveway minutes after getting to the car. I really enjoy the music they listen to now and the TV shows/movies are much better too. I don't have to carry a big bag full of drinks, clothes, diapers etc...Colin can even mow the lawn! We can do a lot of fun things as a family too. The kids can pull their own sleds up the hill while sleigh riding, they can go on rides that I like at the amusement park, snow tubing, roller skating, swimming so many fun things. OK, thanks, I needed to focus on the positive, I'm feeling better now. :)

My hope for all kids this summer is to have great weather and lots of fun times! Sleep in when you need to, play into the night, laugh, play games with water & balls. Eat lots of ice cream, just play, play, play and enjoy being kids!!!

now, I have to bring my little baby to nursery school for the last time....