Jay & Colin are out of town it's almost 1:00am and I have trouble sleeping...so I'll blog. I've had my Dad on my mind all day today. Honestly, I usually try hard not to do too much thinking when it comes to my Dad. However this is different, my little brother, Zarek who is about 12 weeks old has been very sick. He had pneumonia & was having trouble breathing. He was admitted to the hospital last week, at that time they found a large mass on his lung. His lung has since collapsed and the mass will need to be removed. My heart hurts for my Dad & Grace, I can't even imagine. It is the not knowing that makes it so much harder to deal with and he's so little!

Jay & I have been through a lot with Nellie over the last 9 years. As a parent you just have to deal with what is put in front of you, you don't even think about it. As long as I live I will always VERY clearly remember the doctors taking Nellie away on the stretcher and later the nurse telling us "they are working on her heart and she is on life support". Every hospitalization was hard, but those words took my breath away. When I hear about some one's child going through something like this, I know how scary it is. It makes it tougher when you don't know what your dealing with, your mind can go in all kinds of places. I just pray everything will be OK for Zarek.