My Kids Mom

I love this time of day so much it makes me feel guilty.(10:38pm) My house is quiet and no one is asking me for anything. I adore my 3 kids (and husband), so it's surprising how much I enjoy them sleeping. I was giving Nellie a kiss good night and it just warms my heart to see how far she has come. She was asking for something and I couldn't figure it out. She has made so much progress with speech, but she is still so hard to understand. When she was little she would just get distracted and move on, but now she knows what she wants. I try so hard to be patient, I ask her to sign it but that doesn't help. I just can't put her to bed knowing she is wanting something, not knowing what it is. I get her down from her bunk bed and we go into the dining room. She points to her backpack, she wants her bear that she brought to school. I'm so glad I took the time to figure this out and I wonder how many times I didn't take the time. I'm feeling guilty again.
This afternoon Braelyn (4) asked me "why do only the big girls get to kiss boys?" I told her that "stuff" is for grown ups and at four years old she should just play with dolls and color and not worry about boys. Of course that explanation was not good enough for Braelyn. Why? I tell her God made all the rules, I just follow them. She is only 4, I cannot imagine what is in store for me.